I recently had a patient encounter with an elderly woman and the conversation is as follows:
“Do you think God is creating this virus to destroy the world like he has done in the past? Like he is wanting us to learn something?”
(Me) “I think God is good and would not create this kind of destruction. He has said after the flood that he would not destroy the earth like that again. He said that he works everything out for good. He did not say that everything will be good. The enemy is present to kill, to steal, and to destroy. I believe this is not God.”
(Patient) “I grew up in the Church of Christ and do love God. I have lived for over 70 years and never in my life has something like this happened. I just can’t wrap my head around why. Where is God in this?”
I didn’t really know what to say at this point, other than to listen and ponder with her. I know God did not send this pandemic, but I will never know why it has occurred in this lifetime. I have tried to focus on only positive thoughts such as having more time to learn a new hobby, catching up on Netflix, spending time at home, and enjoying the presence of immediate family; however, the energy of the world is filled with fear, anxiety, and isolation.
Jesus describes the purpose of parables in Mark 4 by defining three different foundations of faith:
1. Rocky soil= hear the word, accept the word, but have no root and when tribulation comes, the faith falls away.
2. Thorns= hear the word, however the desires of the world overpowers the faith.
3. Good soil= hear the word, accept the word, and spread fruit (joy, faith, success) in multiples.
I would like to think that my faith has a foundation of good soil. I like to think that my optimistic persona will radiate and disperse the fear that is all around me. However, as I write this post, I feel like my faith is grown in thorns. The stresses and worry of current life are drowning my joy and hope I have in Jesus. In the words of my sweet lady, “where is God in this?”
I don’t know, but I do know that I will find out one day. For now, I will hope for the future as I know this too shall pass. I will continue to find joy in the little things. And I will continue to trust that God is with us.
Until next shift,
Shania
“And these are the ones sown on rocky ground: the ones who, when they hear the word, immediately receive it with joy. And they have no root in themselves, but endure for a while; then, when tribulation or persecution arises on account of the word, immediately they fall away. And others are the ones sown among thorns. They are those who hear the word, but the cares of the world and the deceitfulness of riches and the desires for other things enter in and choke the word, and it proves unfruitful. But those that were sown on the good soil are the ones who hear the word and accept it and bear fruit, thirtyfold and sixtyfold and a hundredfold.””
Mark 4:16-20 ESV
https://www.bible.com/59/mrk.4.16-20.esv